Maybe my body just hasn't caught up yet.

Recently, I feel like something has quietly shifted inside me.

It's not so much that my way of thinking has changed, but rather that something more basic, a layer of my perception has changed.

The place where I'm standing is different from a while ago.

Even though we are looking at the same scenery, the temperature and weight of the information we receive are different.

It feels like I'm moving forward, but also like the stage has changed, or the world line has slid sideways.

My smartphone updated automatically in the middle of the night, and even though I opened the same screen this morning, for some reason it felt different to use.

It might be something similar to that feeling.

It's certainly new.

But my body hasn't gotten used to it yet.

Even though my head was facing forward, I felt as if my body and daily life were one breath behind.

I'm sure there are many people who have had this feeling recently.

At 2:30 in the morning, a sound that stops your thoughts

Just now, I was creating healing background music for animals.

153Hz.

A frequency that makes your thoughts stop and your mind go blank.

I was in a daze, the contours of time melted away, and before I knew it, it was 2:30 in the morning.

I thought I'd just leave the words as they are today, even though I feel like I don't know what I'm writing.

It seems like they're happening simultaneously, but in fact they're happening one by one

There are four main streams in my life right now.

One is my wife, Sakurako Fujino's, and my artist activities: singing and creating.

Sakurako continues to sing, and I take over putting the sounds together.

The second is preparation for sound design, which is the time to create the "sound atmosphere" of a company or store.

The third is one-on-one time spent with people, a dialogue that connects them to their original place through their voice.

And the fourth is enjoying the life of a "music life artist" with others.

Written like this, it may seem like a lot of multitasking.

But in reality, they don't hold them all at the same time, they just switch between them quickly, one at a time.

Do it for a while, and when you feel like you've reached that point, stop. Then move on to the next thing.

The rhythm is just fast, but inside they only do one thing at a time.

Social media is my inner self right now

If you've seen recent social media posts and felt like the atmosphere has changed, that's probably true.

It was a direct expression of who I am inside right now.

Before, I would think about how to write and how to organize it.

Now, if it floats, I just leave it there.

So, readers may feel like they are peeking into the middle of my thoughts.

Why is my song the only one that isn't progressing?

Among them, there is one thing that just keeps bothering me.

My song isn't progressing.

The songs I receive from commissions progress naturally and joyfully.

But my song is the only one that doesn't make any sound.

The reason is clear.

The day the script came off on my bike

Last October, my values changed dramatically.

On the way home from a meeting, I was riding my bike with pink hair.

About music, work, and the future.

That doesn't mean I wasn't worried.

While riding my bike, I suddenly had a thought.

"Maybe this is just me suffering in a script I wrote myself."

At that moment, something suddenly became funny.

I was laughing out loud while riding my bike.

Since that day, the same scenery has started to look different.

A new script and a body that can't keep up

I was the only one who had changed the script. My surroundings and my body were still the same as before.

That's why it feels strange.

The way I used to communicate and compose music no longer worked.

I'm currently in the process of replacing it all.

It feels like cardboard boxes are piled up in a new house.

The current state of the house is like someone just moved into.

Cardboard boxes are piled up, but it has not yet been decided what to put where.

It may look unstable from the outside, but inside it's strangely fun.

But I still can't calm down.

That's why I can't write my own songs.

A song about people who don't fight and have survived

There is a theme that is slowly emerging.

Don't fight. Don't fight.

And songs of those who have survived up to this point.

This is music that not only conveys success and achievement, but also makes you feel relaxed and say, "You've done well."

It's not a sound yet, so for now I'm waiting.

To those who feel the same way

Recently, more and more people have expressed similar feelings.

Something has changed, but I can't put it into words.

Today, I just wanted to leave a hint that "I know that feeling."

Truly a new beginning

After Setsubun, the new year begins to quietly begin.

I too will proceed without rushing and have fun.

I feel like once a song is born, the scenery will change again.

Each place, each musical life. **

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